what's real now :: i've been working several evenings during the week + a full day on Saturday, and Sunday afternoons, in an effort to get in some extra hours before i'm likely unemployeed come the new year. i miss our family time together, as it feels like there's a whole bunch of solo parenting going on lately. grateful that this stretch of work will only last a few more weeks.
what's real now :: ben started Kindergarten, and i'm so thankful the transition has gone well. while there's been a few mornings when he's said he wants to stay home, he inevitably hops out of the car at carpool, excited for the new day. hoping he continues to love school.
what's real now :: working on helping him cope with emotions when he gets frustrated or angry. searching for strategies to help him when he gets upset so that he's able to deal instead of throw a fit or call names. trying really hard to model how we cope when frustrated or angry, and to consistently remain calm. this seems to go in phases - some really good stretches of time with no problems, and then a few more challenging days in a row. i'm working on not taking this as a direct indiction that i'm failing at this parenting gig.
what's real now :: grateful for some structure to my days, now that school has started up. joined two playgroups, going to storytime, volunteering in the media center at Ben's school... i'm finding that a tentitive schedule for my weekday mornings really helps my mental well-being.
what's real now :: sophie transitioned to preschool beautifully... i'm amazed at how independant she is. she seems totally unphased when i drop her off in the morning, and has taken to repeating things she hears at school. i love listening to her chatter on the way home. she suddenly seems so much bigger - definately moving into being a kid, and leaving toddlerhood behind.
what's real now :: so grateful for some one-on-one time with my sweet baby girl. it's felt a bit like she's just along for the ride in our family, given her easy going temperment, and her more vocal brother and sister. trying to will time to slow down just a bit to enjoy this last go round of parenting an infant.
what's real now :: wanting to get back to running, and train for another 5k or sprint triathlon, but still feeling too tired in the mornings to actually get started. waking up a little earlier in the mornings, and trying to shift my sleep cycle (and the quiet house is a definate plus too)